Eeeek! It's been too long! Just very busy with life. My journey in weight loss/gain has continued in the same direction since the last time I wrote you.
Over these past few weeks/months I have been trying to find balance in juggling all of life's commitments, and goals. I was feeling a bit dizzy (not literally) in the tailspin of 2013, but I performed a "check-up from the neck-up" a few weeks ago and I told myself to chill out. Stop thinking about all of the things you need to do in the future days/weeks/months...just focus on NOW.
When I look at the big picture of our week it can seem overwhelming. It can seem like I can't fit in a field trip, a play date, or even time for exercise. But when I turn off the noise, and just focus on the NOW (the day at hand), there is ALWAYS time for an hour of fitness. But because I have taken health/fitness out of my life in 2013 as a "huge priority", I can still feel tempted to bail on my "NOW" way of thinking from time to time. Even though I had had my "NOW" epiphany, the novelty would wear off, and I would opt to strategize ways to be more efficient in other areas of my life...leaving little-to-no-room for exercise.
But all the while, I could see the numbers creepin' up on the scale, my clothes don't really fit anymore (and not in the really cool way, lol), and those results and feelings are frustrating also.
Always the tug-of-war between wanting to be lazy and eat a cheeseburger VS. wanting to be fit and literally feel healthy.
Always the conversation of: It's OKAY that weight loss isn't the main priority, but it needs to be a priority.
So in an effort to get re-motivated to press on in this journey, I joined one of the Biggest Loser competitions that I had competed in 1 time, a couple of years ago with friends. The competition started at the beginning of March. Also, in an effort to be consistent in fitness, I had the grand idea to set up accountability partners for myself.
For right now, I can't seem to be consistent on my own, but if someone else is counting on me to be somewhere, I will absolutely be there!
So on Mondays, I have been meeting my sister for Spin class at her gym.
On Tuesdays, the kids and I have been hiking Cowles Mountain together...
On Wednesdays, I have been meeting my friend from my WW meetings (shout out to Jana!) at my gym for Spin class...
On Thursdays I have been meeting my friend (shout out to Erin!) at my gym for Spin class...
On Fridays I have been meeting 2-B at the gym for a Zumba class.
And on Saturdays I have been going for a 6 mile run, either solo or with Beatrice.
All of these classes are cardio/endurance exercises, so I realize I am missing strength training in my routine. But for now, I am not going to care. I have been consistently exercising for 3 weeks, and that feels like a personal achievement. Maybe in time, when I start shedding more of this weight, I will feel more motivated, and I will magically find the time (because that's what we do when we really want to do something) to add strength training to my week. But for right now, this is what I have worked out (excuse the pun, lol) and so I am going to just go with it.
As far as diet goes, I have continued to go to my WW meetings every week, even as I have been failing. I think that is a mini success in of itself. I have not given up on the program. The program WORKS...I just have to work the program. Even if I am too busy...even too busy for exercise...there is NEVER an excuse for not eating healthy. There just isn't. (Do you hear that Elizabeth!? lol) So in the last few weeks as I have been consistently exercising, I have been almost consistently on plan with WW. However, I'm in the process of removing the word "almost" from that sentence in the immediate future...A.K.A. the presence.
So, in conclusion...in my current state of mind, I am feeling "optimistic" about my weight loss journey, but at the same time, I'm feeling a bit "fragile." This 'NOW' plan isn't feeling concrete, but with enough consistency, it should/will.
Just 35 pounds to go until goal...I remember when that number was so much smaller....gahhhhh!
Your Biggest Fan,
Elizabeth
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